Entry: what i saw and felt Tuesday, May 06, 2008



In solitude, the guard is left outside. you let your heart be ripped out, remind, write it down for emphasis, and while the ebbing hurt resides, sew it up with a rough string. Remind and regret, no more repeats.


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She smiled at the impertinent promoter. Slight tightening of the eyes, a few more lines surfaced. "I still have monthly income, it's more than what you require" "madam you need to have constant income" "I do, it's more than what you need" "we require our customers to have a steady income from a paid job for this card" and though the smile never left her face, a battle is being fought and steadily lost with every protest from the disagreeable girl peddling her wares. Every 'no' was a blow against pride and standing. The smile stayed, but is that all that's left of a life's work? 18 years, now a pensioner and stripped of rights to procure a card? So what if it's only a card?

Is that all that's left to take credit for? Not even eligible for a discount card?

There I stood, taking it in. I left my pity inside me, for the battle was not to be seen. It's a humiliation only for one self. But there's a rush of absolute pity and wanting to cover her from the apologetic promoter denying her. With a tightening resolution to not have to be in that selfsame place - Defending my position in society.

   3 comments

Robert
May 19, 2008   04:55 AM PDT
 
Oh i see. In that case, good writing there - very emotionally charged :)
xiao
May 18, 2008   04:28 PM PDT
 
i was actually concentrating on another line of thought, so to speak =)

And the promoter wasn't actually impertinent. I wrote from two points of views ><
Robert
May 16, 2008   08:56 AM PDT
 
In my opinion, adult's world is grossly overrated; too many rules but not much substance in between. With all the discounts and promotion come shopping spree followed by an out-of-balance check book plus a headache. Perhaps a wry smile could have replaced the heart-wrenching pity when you walked away from that impertinent promoter :)

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